I'm not sure what percentage of people suffer from true- non situational depression. A lot? And we all deal with it differently. But my shell has been cracking for months and I feel I and closing in on a macaroni necklace making and no shoelaces kind of vacation. #depression
I posted this photo on Instagram 2 nights ago.
I guess if you haven't spent time in a mental hospital then you don't get my macaroni necklace joke. But really- no joke. Some of my best crafts have been made in mental hospitals. And, they really do take away your shoelaces. I am NOT crafty enough to attempt to kill myself with shoe strings. Other people maybe, but not myself. (insert laugh)
How do you explain depression to people that have never experienced it? Like real, raw, walk out into the woods and never come back type of depression. Jason will ask, "What's wrong?" and often time there is no reason.
The (well one of) definition of depression is:
feelings of severe despondency and dejection
So true. And lacking affect. Wanting to make a deep dark cave for yourself and it doesnt even matter if the bears join you.
I'm not suicidal currently. And I am on a few medications that I've been on for years, and some that are new to me as I struggle thru this reason bout of sufferage.
Since some of you have asked (I love your emails! I'm bad at writing back! Will do!), I am on a combination of:
The abilify is about 2 months new for me and so far I've seen nothing positive come out of it, even after a dosage up. There is still lots more room to go on that one though. And of course I have the Klonopin which I think helps in keeping me a bit saner around the kids.
I oft wonder what it would be like to be off all the medications. Probably not a plan in my future though.